I need out of here...

I need to get far far away....I need a new start...a new life... I can't live like this anymore...I can't handle it...it's killing me....practically making me kill myself...I need to go...I need to run....I need out....but I can't leave ....I promised her I wouldn't...I swore....I told her that I would rather die than leave again...I want to keep that promise...I must...I have to..I need to... I can't do that again....I have to find something...find a way to get to where I want to be... find a way to make these dreams come to fruition...I've got to....I can't break that promise...